No amount of words could ever express...

Not long ago, I found out the most horrifying news ever. I'm so crushed for my friend and her family, my thoughts, my prayers, my heart goes out to them. I feel the worse for not knowing this earlier but it's only my fault for not being active in my friends' lives. I've been so bottled up and shelled in just trying to figure out many things that I ignored everything else around me. I'm so sorry.

Silly Willy Daddy Issues

Yesterday I was talking to my dad on the phone sitting on the stairs with Ivy next to me, I tried to stroke her hair (like I always do) and she turned around with a very mean look - I'm talking starring from under her brow and pouting her lips! - she then yelled "HEY! DON'T DO THAT!!" (very clearly!!) I was shocked! What? What do you mean, 'don't do that'??? I sort of chuckled after I got pass the shock. I grabbed her little arms and got right in her face (playfully) "You, Missy, are my daughter and I will love and hug and touch you if I want to. You can tell me if you don't want me to, but you don't have to yell at me. Now, why don't you want me to touch your hair?". She then looks down as though I had punished her and she looks at me sad and about to cry and says, "I miss papa" ....WHAT???? I didn't even think she ACTUALLY knew who he was. I guess it's my fault, ahahaha, I do tell them who he is. I just didn't think she would catch on so quickly, the boys never did. hahaha. I felt horrible and I told her that daddy will be here soon - I can FINALLY make good on that because he, indeed, will be here soon.

I'm SO super psyched as so are the boys. Everyday when they wake up they stare out the window. When I ask them what they are doing, they ask me, "When Daddy coming home?" Aren't they cute? Well, we'll see how things go when Daddy arrives. I know it's gonna be awkward for the kids, it always is. =P

Odin's 1st Birthday

Happy Birthday my little love.

Yup, today is the day my Odin turns 1. Should be a happy day but I can't say I'm too happy about it. These past months have been very difficult for him and I. He's been sick and I feel cheated. Him being sick and trying to find out what was wrong resulting in tens and tens of Dr. appts have really taken away those special Mommy & Baby moments. I never really got to play with him like I would have liked to, take him out on many strolls or throw him in the air as a baby like I did the rest because I feared I would cause even more damage. I feel like he's been more of a lab rat than a baby due to all the dang Dr. visits. I honestly think he's spent more time in the hospital than the outdoors. I really wish I could just turn back time and say " the heck with all the doctors, I'm gonna enjoy my baby." But I can't.

As for today, our day was alright. We didn't do anything too special. He's been irritable all day so our trip to the circus we planned just went out the window. I've tried what I can to make him happy and got some smiles outta him. I really wish that he'd get better and make an attempt to just sit without freaking out that I'm a foot away - the OT is trying to figure that one out because I just can't. If I pull away he cries for dear life and freaks out - even an inch - he's pulling my hair, scratching me, hitting me just trying to get his body close to me again. This is not how I imagined his first birthday, but I am trying to make the best of it.........even now. We'll see how we welcome tomorrow.

CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

The day just can't get any better, my kid's doing good and to top it off..........CSI SEASON PREMIER IS TONIGHT!!!! 9PM, don't miss it! "My name is Christy and I'm a CSI addict." I've been counting down the months, weeks, days and now hours........what will happen with Warrick? Did anyone consider Greg's feelings?? Who will be charged with his murder?? Tun tun tun! Tune in...we will soon find out. ......................................................Okay, well, catch you all laters, gotta put the kids to sleep early and bring out the popcorn, it's show time!

Parent Teacher Conference

I tell ya, I think Erick's teacher is intimidated by me. I noticed she only gets nervous and apprehensive when she talks to me. Must've been that meeting I had with her and the principal earlier in the year. LOL. She apparently thinks I'm one of those parents who doesn't care and simply sends her kid off to school. Guess what?I'm not and I'm her worse nightmare...........today was not exception and it showed. I'm not trying to be mean, but if it scares her into treating my kid with respect, why not? ::sinister laugh::

Anyway.....I'm soo super happy and extremely proud of my boy. Erick is doing great! He's #2 in his class and his speech and listening skills have been improving greatly. #1 is a kid who's a year older than him and has great speech, listening & comprehensive skills. In a perfect world, Erick would have left the kid in the dust. LOL. I'm mean. I know it's not a competition, but it feels good when your kid's teacher tells you he's doing more than super! And no, it wasn't because she's scared of me. LOL. So, Saturday we'll be going to the Ice Cream parlor to get him his very deserving treat! Happy Happy Joy Joy. I'm a proud Mama, can you tell? Wait 'til I tell his Papa!

My Anniversary Presents

I spend every year with flowers and without my hubster. LOL. It's alright, he knows I'm a sucker for flowers. I LOVE THEM! (even though this year he sent them with the same bear I got last time. hahahaha)


AND this year, he threw in a little extra som'tn som'tn - CHOCOLATE COVERED STRAWBERRIES!! Yummy! He told me to indulge alone but I couldn't NOT share with my kiddos. LOL. They are too delicious to NOT share! =)

Mi Nuevo Look

Chooowwwssa! Check it out, I went nuts and cut my bangs. Actually, I just got tired of Odin pulling on my hair. I think he's out to get me! hahaha. I wore this look many times before but never with long hair. Sometimes you just gotta go back and revisit yourself. I felt I was becoming to normal for my own good. I haven't been myself since I arrived here in Texas, it's depressing. LOL. Well, all that matters is the hopeful thought that Erick will like it. He's never seen me with long hair and I told him I wouldn't shave my head like I did last time. I just trimmed it a bit this time. hahaha.